Christmas Band Concert Tonight!

Tonight is my daughter’s Christmas band concert. There will also be performances from other groups at the school. It’s time for Christmas songs again. Another reminder that this year will be another year that we are not celebrating the holiday season like most people are.

Unemployment has reached our family like it has so many others and we are feeling the heavy burden that comes with it. Lack of funds, bills past due, struggling to make it, and the hope of us making enough to catch up AND buy Christmas seems out of reach. Again.

I will put on a happy face, smile and applaud my daughter, like always, even though deep inside I’m feeling the pangs of regret and sorrow that I have allowed, again, for our situation to come to this. How did I let this happen again?! WHY didn’t I realize that with my husband going back to working in construction that the winter weather was going to cause a lack of proper weather conditions and work? Oh, yeah, because his boss told him that they had plenty of inside work that would keep them busy through the winter.

I understand that things happen and jobs fall through, some people don’t pay for work being done like they say they will (NOT a good way to conduct business AT ALL), and then BAM! You wake up and find yourself in a situation where you’ve worked for weeks getting very little pay and being told that money was coming – and you realize that you have worked for FREE! Can anyone afford to do that?! No one that I know can. And then, having some of the other work projects put off due to the icy winter weather, which in turn caused about another 3 long weeks of working only about 3 days!

But, this too shall pass. We will recover from this as we have recovered from other past situations. The difference this time will be, I have a PLAN! I am determined to make our situation better, not only by continuing my education (which I started in June), but also with my new venture Jewelry In Candles. I believe that this company that has hit their 5 year business goals in 3 short months is going to explode and it’s definitely worth being a part of! I am at the beginning of great things happening for my family! I have already begun the change. I have also opened a savings account and I am going to put aside 10% for Tithes and 5% for us. For dental work. For next Christmas. For emergencies. For times like these when you don’t know how you’re going to pay the next bill, let alone have money for Christmas….I am making a change.

“If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll get what you’ve always gotten.” – Tony Robbins said. And it is absolute TRUTH! So, let’s do things differently and get a different, better result!

Wishing you all an early Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! I am going to ENJOY my daughter playing her Trombone in tonight’s Christmas Concert and leave the pangs of REGRET and SORROW at home! 🙂

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Taking “X” Things With Gratitude

Have a “Gratitude Attitude!” I really enjoyed reading this blog, so I wanted to share it with other readers.

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When it comes to life the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude. ~~ G. K. Chesterton

For the rest of November, I’m going to take with gratitude some of those things I often take for granted — an entire alphabet’s worth! Since today is the twenty-fourth day of this surge of gratitude, I am giving thanks for “X” things.

I am especially grateful for:

XX. There is a single page in my dictionary for X, so there’s not a lot of X things to take with gratitude. I could be grateful for X-ray machines (and I am when I need one, just not today). I could be grateful for xeriscaping, and I am — elder care is hard enough without adding lawn care to the duties. I could be grateful for xylophones, and I will be if ever I get one. So what “X” thing…

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Thanksgiving

Image  Thanksgiving is a special time of year for me, a time to re-connect with loved ones and bake tasty treats to share. In years past, as a child, I spent this favorite holiday with extended family at my grandma’s and grandpa’s house, and then, after they past, at my aunt Wilma’s. It always felt like a vacation to me.

When mom was still living, our tradition was making homemade fudge with pecans and peanuts and peanut butter cookies to take to the family’s. That was many, many years ago, but I can still remember rolling up the peanut butter ball dough and carefully placing them on the cookie sheet to be pressed and shaped with the fork tines, all the while sneaking tiny bites of the delicious dough! Oh, the good old days!

While I still love this time of year, I truly miss my parents much more during this time, and that makes it bitter-sweet. I am making new memories and sharing new and old traditions with my children and grandchildren now, and reflecting on days past hoping and praying that I, too, will leave behind memories that will be cherished long after I’m gone as well.

This year I am thankful for many things, but above all I am thankful for everything that God has blessed our family with, including good health, His provisions, and the love of my family and friends.

I wish each and every one of you a very Blessed and Happy Thanksgiving!

Charlie Brown and Snoopy Thanksgiving

Mother

Mother 

You left so soon, before the flowers even had
chance to bloom. That sad day when your life
was taken away. A dozen years have passed,
and the days without you are still outcast.

You’ve missed my struggles, accomplishments,
my life. Sometimes I truly need your advice.
I keep remembering that day when the news was
given that you’d gone away, to Heaven, they
said and you’d be okay.

But what about the shopping and the lunches
I planned for that day when I reached my successful stand?
I haven’t had time, I haven’t done my part. You can’t be gone,
what about the desires of my heart?
Yet my regret remains for things undone,
that time slipped away before I’d begun to
give back to you like you’d always done…

The Rain

 

As she sat alone at her kitchen table, not quite feeling very stable, listening to the rhythm of the rain as it tapped upon her windowpane.

As the rhythm increased, all thoughts of finding employment ceased, and she marveled at the rain that brought her such peace.

What beauty she found in the music she heard, not from a stereo,
but from God’s unspoken words.

A lullaby sent from above, by the Maker of all with abundant love.
Simply for her peace, Oh how she loved the rain’s gentle beat!

Even now, a midst the troubles of life, unemployment, no money and all of life’s strife, she knew that the rain came with hope from above, to show her God’s beauty and undying love.

She has courage again to fight depression and win, found through the rain and the wind whispering “You Can!”

Oh, how thoughtful of the Father to show her He cares,
and how loving of Him to show her He’s there!

Once again focused on matters of the heart,
the troubles of this world soon will part,
and all that remains is the rhythm of the rain.